@Jamila: I dunno, I think we did a pretty good job of not fitting in together. And I suspect that the feeling of not fitting in is pretty universal, no matter what the reason. You have to decide how much of yourself you're willing to sacrifice in order to not be lonely. I was lucky to have you guys and a bunch of other good friends to keep from having to worry about it so much.

Now I just hate that I wasted so many years being a homophobic, self-loathing doofus. I got way more abuse from myself than I ever did from anybody else. I dunno, maybe somebody will read this at some point and realize the message is "For the love of God, Don't Do What This Guy Did."