I just feel numb about the whole thing at this point. I do feel the need to be engaged, but after years of this nonsense and starting a whole new dive towards hell after briefly believing we might be through the worst of it I just feel tired. It's not so much Trump himself. I know what he is, and I know people like him will always exist. It's that so many people willingly choose him again, after everything that has been so open and clear about his actions and character. The sheer number of people that want this. Again. I feel increasingly disconnected from the rest of the world.

It's not the first time this happened, but it just doesn't seem to stop. I'm trying to figure out some way of doing something positive locally instead of just being informed and talking about how and why all these things are so wrong to people that are already in my bubble online and offline. I feel a desperate need to see some good in people again. At this point that seems too hard (apart from, of course, all the people that I know are just as sad and bemused as I am). Because this is dark, and it's only going to get worse. And this time I don't have it in me anymore to believe that some of those voters might just be uninformed or misguided. This is what they want, full stop. I don't really know how to process that yet.

Sorry, not an uplifting comment, and I'm not even sure why I'm leaving this. Just trying to see some small way forward, where I can keep some semblance of sanity.

The only advice I can give you now is to surround yourself with the people you love and care about, and those who will be hurting the most from whatever will come out of this. We're all going to need each other, I think.